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February 2026 Recap

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I'll be honest, February wasn't nearly as productive as I would have liked it to be. My mind was mostly focused on just "making it through the day/week/month". I had a whole list of things I was supposed to get done in my bullet journal (which I was too burnt out to use for most of the month) and I think I only crossed out two or three.

Sometimes I almost forget that I'm disabled, and then my symptoms will start showing up and reality hits me like a truck. But then again, I'm not sure if I want to pathologize my experience. Maybe it's not even about being disabled/disordered, maybe it's just about being a human being with limits, like every human has. You can't expect anyone, not even the most able-bodied/neurotypical person in the world, to be at 100% all the time.

I've realized I've been caught up in this cycle of feeling fine during the work week and then just crashing during the weekend. Long weekends and holiday breaks can be especially bad. I must keep my brain occupied at all times, lest I give it time to think about [DATA EXPUNGED]. It's ironic because even though I keep giving myself all these tasks to do, nothing actually gets done. Emails don't get read or responded to, the house is a mess, I'm struggling with basic activities of daily living[^1]. If I wasn't living with family right now I'd probably be living in squalor.

I'm so glad that I have this website. Websites are living documents. They're never 100% done and absolutely full of Sisyphean tasks. There's always something to do. Always more code to write and then rewrite. Always another blog post to publish. If I wasn't keeping myself busy with pointless stuff on this site, I might actually go crazy for real.

Working on my Website

I guess since I'm already writing about my website I'll give you guys a little sneak peek of my site revamp, just to prove that I'm actually doing something.

A screenshot of my new craft gallery, showing a grid of 12 thumbnails A screenshot of an individual page in the gallery, it shows one of the images blown-up with it's image description, commentary, and metadata beneath it.

I've finally gotten my gallery generator to a point where I'm happy with it! I have some ideas for things I might want to add down the road, but as far as baseline functionality goes it's going great! Now it's just a matter of collecting all the images and inputting all the info (writing alt text and image descriptions, metadata, etc). Right now my crafts gallery has ~40 completed pages!

A screenshot of a placeholder comment section, showing both the form and some dummy comments.

I've also been messing around with adding a comment section. I debated if I should really do this, because I think there are a lot of pros and cons of having comments on your site, but eventually I was just like, sure, why not? I can always just shut it off later if I don't like it. I know I want to add comment sections on blog posts. I'm still debating whether or not I want to add them to things like gallery pieces.

This particular comment widget is Virtual Observer's JS comment widget. I'm a little disappointed that I can't use a PHP widget, since my webhost supports that, but 'tis the way of the static site generator user. The widget is really customizable but for the life of me I can't figure out how to reformat the date. I've dug through the code but it always comes out as month/day/year. Maybe it's a Google Docs thing?

Aside from all of this I'm redoing my link directory again. I'm also doing a lot of backend stuff that most people probably won't care about but matter to me.

Following Up On New Years Resolutions

Most of my new years resolutions have fallen by the wayside. I'm drinking more coffee, I'm sleeping like shit. The only one that's been going decently well is my goal of walking 7,000 steps a day. On days that I work I usually get around the 5,000-6,000ish range. Not amazing, but still much better than I was doing before. I've also been trying to be less sedentary on days where I'm not working.

Kind of a tangent but I've also been struggling to find a privacy respecting pedometer app for iOS. So many of them want to track your location or biometrics, which is a hard no from me. The most popular/reputable ones I can find only work on Android because you have to sideload them. The one I've been using is also very buggy and sometimes just randomly resets itself. Oh, and of course it shows you ads. 🙄 I should probably just buy an analog pedometer at this point.

Going Out and Making Things

I've been spending more time in my community. Not as much as I'd like to be spending, but still more than I was before.

I've been trying to meet with friends more often. A couple weeks ago I met up with a friend at a coffee shop. We talked while I worked on a crochet project for my Grandma. I also brought Icecreampy with me! My friend calls it the "squeature" because it's a creature that squeaks.

An indoor coffee shop table with a bunch of stuff on it. Contents include a large ball of brown yarn, scissors, a coffee cup, my crocheted sunflower bag, my open crocheted hook case, my friend's crocheted doll and my Icecreampy plush. Icecreampy on a table outside. An alternate angle of Icecreampy on a table outside.

The weekend after that our town hosted a cute little winter market. I've been getting into scented candles recently, so I bought one of those. Inspired by my trip to the conservatory earlier this month, I also bought a houseplant. The guy at the booth said it was some kind of cactus, but I forgot exactly what kind. He said I don't have to water it super often, which is good, because if I'm barely taking care of myself I can't imagine I'd be able to care for a houseplant.

My new mini cactus in a pot on my desk.

He doesn't have a name yet. Feel free to send me your suggestions!

I've also been trying to get back into making (digital) art. It's not perfect but hey, it's not the worst for someone who's been out of practice for so long.

A digital bust drawing of a brown hare.

Tomodachi Life Direct

Okay, I know the Tomodachi Life direct happened at the very tail end of January, but I didn't catch the vod until February, so I'm talking about it here. Tomodachi Life: Living the Dream looks so good!

I like how they managed to add a lot of new customization options, while still having the miis look like miis. They also finally fulfilled their promise of letting you make gay miis, and even nonbinary miis! I also love how unmarried miis can be roommates now, I feel like that could lead to a lot of entertaining moments.

I'm really glad the game's coming out for the original Switch and not the Switch 2. I'll actually be able to play it because I don't own a Switch 2 and I don't plan on buying one any time soon. Rhythm Heaven Groove is coming out for the original Switch as well. The only games I care about are coming out on a console that can be easily emulated I already own, lucky me!

Random thought but does anyone else remember that one Tomodachi Life app game that was around for a little while? I played it when it came out but it was pretty boring, and of course it was full of microtransactions. Anyway, I'm glad we're getting a real mii game after all this time.

Media

Haven't been watching or listening to much, honestly. Been too burnt out to really enjoy or fully engage with a lot of things. I feel bad because so many bloggers I follow are able to give thought-provoking book reviews or political analysis or other smart important things on such a regular basis meanwhile I just link to YouTube Poops that I like. Anyway...

Watching

The Fun Stuff

The Serious Stuff

Listening To

Recently I've been really nostalgic for, what do you even call this genre, 2000's white guy synth indie? Anyway, I truly believe that Time to Pretend is a 10/10 song with a 10/10 music video. Kids is also a 10/10 song.

What I'm Looking Forward to in March

Uhhhhh, not much honestly. I kept telling myself I'd get back on track by March, but clearly that didn't happen. Not really any big events I'm looking forward to either. I'll figure something out though.

Overall

I work and I'm exhausted. I do nothing and I'm depressed. I leave the house and I feel like shit the second I get home. I try to enjoy my hobbies and half the time I feel nothing. At least you can't say I'm not trying. ¯\(ツ)/¯

[^1]: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Activities_of_daily_living

[^2]: Yes, I know this is a relatively old and already very popular video, but I rewatched it in February and I think it's an amazing video on the subject.